[a duet with elle. paired on elle's playlist]
basically, i bet you'll see
at first, i'm not quite what i seem
every day is just the same
(picking names, repeating faces)
everything is show and tell
and things are played off somewhat well
holding hands, we're rather bored
nothing lines up anymore
wait,
what is going on here?
i'm a little out of sorts
i've been contemplating
fallacies and things that scare me
"why not try to let go?"
i've been feeling out of order
i'm allowing change, so
take a good look; this is me
this is what i've come to be
moving along, dancing along, playing along
i am
waiting for it, preparing it, looking for it
i am
feeling around, messing around, looking at you
i am
laughing a lot, losing a lot, looking at you
i am
take a good look; this is me
this is what i've come to be
this is what i shouldn't be!
[the first exposure is where the story truly starts.]
a falling star fell from your heart
and landed in my eyes
i screamed aloud as it tore through them
and now it's left me blind
and in the dark
i can hear your heartbeat
i tried to find the sound
but then it stopped
and i was in the darkness
so darkness i became
the stars
the moon
they have all been blown out
you left me in the dark
no dawn
no day
i'm always in this twilight
in the shadow of your heart
welcome to your life
there's no turning back
even while we sleep
we will find you
acting on your best behaviour
turn your back on mother nature
everybody wants to rule the world
it's my own design
it's my own remorse
help me to decide
help me make the
most of freedom and of pleasure
nothing ever lasts forever
everybody wants to rule the world
there's a room where the light won't find you
holding hands while the walls come tumbling down
when they do, i'll be right behind you
so glad we've almost made it
so sad they had to fade it
everybody wants to rule the world
it scares the hell out of anyone around
the sounds are near
my sister locked her door one time
until the coast was clear
evening, this voice comes across the room
i'm standing on my knees
i'm panting, breathing heavily
there's rug-burns burning me
i wake, try to remember it
grab a glass from the cabinet
close my eyes, subconscious trapping it now
try to pry it open
i wake, try to remember it
grab a glass from the cabinet
close my eyes, subconscious trapping it now
try to pry it open
then it becomes, it becomes, it becomes a problem
then it becomes, it becomes, it becomes a problem
then it becomes a problem, then it becomes a problem
then it becomes, it becomes, it becomes a problem
bad thoughts give me bad dreams
and my bad dreams make me get up and walk
bad thoughts give me bad dreams
and my bad dreams make me sleepwalk
bad thoughts give me bad dreams
and my bad dreams make me get up and walk
bad thoughts give me bad dreams
and my bad dreams make me sleepwalk
hello, i've waited here for you
everlong
tonight, i throw myself into
and out of the red
out of her head, she sang
come down, and waste away with me
down with me
slow, how you wanted it to be
i'm over my head
out of her head, she sang
breathe out so i can breathe you in
hold you in
and i wonder...
if everything could ever feel this real forever
if anything could ever be this good again
the only thing i'll ever ask of you
you've got to promise not to stop when i say when
she said—
i don't care if monday's blue
tuesday's grey and wednesday too
thursday, i don't care about you
it's friday, i'm in love
monday, you can fall apart
tuesday, wednesday, break my heart
oh, thursday doesn't even start
it's friday, i'm in love
i don't care if monday's black
tuesday, wednesday, heart attack
thursday, never looking back
it's friday, i'm in love
monday, you can hold your head
tuesday, wednesday, stay in bed
or thursday, watch the walls instead
it's Friday, i'm in love
saturday, wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday, never hesitate
you can never get enough, enough of this stuff
it's friday, i'm in love
from a tender age, i was cursed with rage
came swingin' like a fist inside a battin' cage
i went swimmin' with the devil at the bottom of a lake
and he left me there by my lonesome
'cause i never wanted savin'
i just wanted to be found
there is a lighthouse
in the middle of the deep
and i'm still stranded on the shoreline there
and nobody hears me scream
and i'll lure you like a landslide
and i'll show you lovely things
if you rescue me, but they're make-believe
the lighthouse by the sea
i'm glad i met the devil 'cause he showed me i was weak
and a little piece of him is in a little piece of me
i wait in intermission
i remove inhibition
i don't speak, nobody's listenin'
it's not safe to seek the attention
i move in all directions
i don't need any protection
and this beast is interjecting
and this soul can't help but connect it
and i'm ill with all that i know
'cause it shows what little i know
i want sacred, i want final
and i'm seeking it wherever i go
i stay empty, feel the hunger
so simple when i was younger
i awaken with the thunder
a bold statement to end my slumber
and this feeling has got a window
'til i'm numb, 'til i am blissful
'til the sum outweighs the mental
'til the blur of both is my limbo
and i'm hollow
hollow
hollow
hollow
hollow
hollow
hollow
hollow
i look at you and suddenly
something in your eyes i see
soon begins bewitching me
it's that old devil moon
that you stole from the skies
it's that old devil moon in your eyes
you and your glance make this romance
too hot to handle
stars in the night, blazing their light
can't hold a candle
to your razzle-dazzle
you've got me flyin' high and wide
on a magic carpet ride
full of butterflies inside
wanna cry, wanna croon
wanna laugh like a loon
it's that old devil moon in your eyes
just when i think i'm
free as a dove
old devil moon
deep in your eyes
blinds me with love
her fight and fury's fiery
oh, but she looks
like sleep to the freezing
sweet and right and merciful
i'm all but washed
in the tide of her breathing
and it's worth it
it's divine
i have this some of the time
the way she shows me i'm hers and she's mine
open hand or closed fist would be fine
the blood is rare and as sweet as cherry wine
[paired on eve, elle, and andreas's playlists.]
hydrogen in our veins, it cannot hold itself, our blood is burning
and the pressure in our bodies that echoes up above it is exploding
and our particles they're burning up because they yearn for each other
and although we stick together, it seems that we are stranging one another
feel it on me, love
feel it on me, love
feel it on me, love
see it on me, love
see it on me, love
see it on me, love
and atom to atom
oh, can you feel it on me, love?
and a pattern to pattern
oh, can you see it on me, love?
atom to atom
oh, what's the matter with me, love?
the static of your arms
it is the catalyst
on a chemical it burns
there is nothing but this
it's the purest element
but it's so volatile
an equation heaven sent
a drug for angels
hey— so cold!
hey— so cold!
hey— so cold!
hey—
down... down, down, down...
[metaphor for the bones creature]
oftentimes i scare my reflection
sometimes i don’t like what it sees
i will find myself alone often
it’s common i’ll talk to myself
but it wasn’t my own voice that told me
maybe i’ll be like this forever
and i don’t mind the voices much
but i still can’t disregard what they say
"don’t scream
one word & i’ll crash this car
i know that you don’t know me
but i know just who you are
don’t cry
weep for who i’ll make you hurt
you don’t get to go to hell
'til you’re 6 feet in the dirt"
i hover two centimeters over your body
i'm dripping, i'm dripping
i'm dripping with dementia
you can not believe
i'm excited and not in a good way
i'm steadily spinning
i'm spinning, i'm spinning
way too slow for you to perceive
wrap you up in my gravity
use my words incorrect-a-ly
i am plump with proclivities
and i'm falling
i'm losing my balance
i'm losing my balance
i'm losing it
and when i bite down
i don't stop until my teeth are touching
i don't stop until my teeth are touching
i don't stop until they-
and when i'm hungry
i don't rest until my fangs are bloody
i don't rest until my fangs are bloody
i'm not restin' 'til they-
and when i bite down
i don't stop until my teeth are touching
i don't stop until my teeth are touching
i don't stop until they meet
and when i'm hungry
i don't rest until my fangs are bloody
i don't rest until my fangs are bloody
i'm not restin' 'til i eat
[this is so riftcore if u imagine night into day as day into night (we are working on a lyric swap w/ rhymes cover)]
and you look dreadful
when you jump to what you'll resort to
singing, "chance, we ain't gonna hurt you"
when there's fuck-all-else to do
you could eat the foam from the headrest
you could knock the wind out of my breath
you could kick the teeth into my head
there's no cause for concern
(i said there's no cause for—)
we could eat the foam from the headrest
(i said there's no cause for—)
you could suck the wind out of my breath
(i said there's no cause for—)
and you could kiss the teeth into my head
and still, there's no cause for concern
i said there's no cause for concern
意中の瞬き火照りだあ (i’m obsessed with your blinking and it’s got me hot and bothered)
痛いなこの手にぐさりだあ (it hurts, the pain deep in my hands)
30 40 狂ったように (30 40 as if i’m crazy)
スマイルでね (i let out a smile)
穿つこの目で (with this pierced eye—)
絶えずその手で (without end, those hands—)
瞬きですら惜しいから (i don’t want to waste time blinking)
見えぬ姿で (the things you said in your unseeable form)
あらぬ素振りで (and with an unforeseen attitude)
放つ言葉で溢れて (made my tears overflow)
リンド リンド 愛を数えて (lindo, lindo, count up the love)
リンド リンド 耳障り (lindo, lindo, it's cacophonous)
リンド リンド きっと託して (lindo, lindo, surely entrust it to me)
リンド きっと バラバラバラララ (lindo, surely it’ll break into pieces, lalala)
L L LIFE ユーエンミー E E EYE 故に (L L LIFE you and me E E EYE due to it)
バッドグレイ 1つ バラバラバララ (the singular bad gray breaks into many pieces, lala)
K K KNIFE ユーエンミー E E EYE 既に (K K KNIFE you and me E E EYE it’s too late)
底知れば悪 (if you come to know of the bottom, it’s evil)
right from the start i knew
you'd set a fire in me
and i'd rather be sad with you
than anywhere away from you
and hey
i can't believe i captured your heart
if you're lonely, lonely, lonely; wake me
if you're lonely, lonely, lonely; wake me
if you're lonely, lonely, lonely; wake me
if you're lonely, lonely, lonely; wake me
blue eyes, real tough
surprise; no luck
fall apart again
get back up
think i found a friend -
maybe not
hit me baby, just fuck me up
just kiss me baby, fuck me up
surprise; we're back where we started
we did it all wrong, we stayed up all night
if i could take the chance - i just might
fall with me for once, make it worth a song
it's not a leap of faith if you don't trust the jump
are you really all that special?
am i really that special to you?
where'd we go, what's the location?
and how could i be found in this awkward situation
what's the matter, was it something that i said
then again, it never left my head
when i go to sleep
i can't even fall asleep
something's got ahold of me
feel it taking over me
but when i'm older
i'll be moving onward
meet me at our spot
got something i wanna show you
meet me at our spot
they can't find us there
caught a vibe
baby, are you coming for the ride?
i just wanna look into your eyes
i just wanna stay for the night
when we take a drive
maybe we can hit the 405
hypnotized by the lights
man, this must be the life
[every time we think about the lyrics none jump out but we listen to it and it is Just So Riftcore that it stays]
breathing in the dark, lying on its side
the ruins of the dead painted with a scar
and the more i straighten out, the less it wants to try
the feelings start to rot one wink at a time
forgiving who you are for what you stand to gain
just know that if you hide, it doesn't go away
when you get out of bed, don't end up stranded
horrified with each stone
on the stage, my little dark age
i grieve in stereo, the stereo sounds strange
i know that if you hide, it doesn't go away
if you get out of bed and find me standing
all alone, open-eyed
burn the page, my little dark age
i grieve in stereo, the stereo sounds strange
you know that if it hides, it doesn't go away
if i get out of bed, you'll see me standing
all alone, horrified
on the stage, my little dark age
i swear that i'll be fine
i'll be fine in the daylight
if i change and i start to fade
and all the green in my eyes desaturate
it's my head, not my heart that's strayed
i'm sorry i keep pushing you away
you're the one at the foot of my bed
trying to keep me alive at night
using words as a comforter, you said
"i don't wanna fight, i don't wanna fight"
why can't you stay?
up against these things i can't see
they don't compare
make me believe, make me believe
i'm sorry i keep pushing
yeah, i'm sorry i keep pushing
(now you're up against the ghosts in my head, in my head)
i'm sorry i keep pushing
(now you're up against the ghosts in my head, in my head)
but still i question if i'm the one living my life
climbing to the top
is never good enough
keeping to myself
because i lack the trust
lose my mind
say goodbye
to the way that i used to live my life
my shallow mind and open eyes
keep me from this light disguise
there's part of me that doesn't exist
break the chains that keep me bound
even if i wear this half-ton crown of darkness
the darkness of the abyss
i'm trapped, bound by these chains
i'm trapped, bound by these chains
i, i don't know
how we came of all of this
and i, i can't see
past the darkness
the darkness of the abyss
i don’t wanna be your personal jesus
i don’t wanna live inside of that flame
in a way, i wanna be my own believer
i don’t wanna play your video game
i don’t wanna be the center of the universe
i don’t wanna be a part of that shame
in a way, i wanna be my own redeemer
i don’t wanna play your video game
i don’t care if everybody else is into it
i don’t care if it’s a popular refrain
i don’t wanna be a puppet in a theater
i don’t wanna play your video game
you don’t wanna be the one who has to pay for it
you don’t wanna be the one who has to change
all you want is what the resumé tells you
i don’t wanna play your video game
i don’t wanna love you if won’t receive it
i don’t wanna save the world that way
i don’t wanna be your personal jesus
i don’t wanna play your video game
i don’t wanna put the devil on a pedestal
i don’t wanna put the saints in chains
i just wanna make my life a little easier
i don’t wanna play your video game
i don't wanna play, i don't wanna play
(i don't wanna play)
i don't wanna play your video game
(i just wanna go away)
i don’t wanna be your julius caesar
i don’t want it to go down that way
but in a way you gotta follow the procedure
so go ahead and play your video game
uh oh, here we go, it starts
up, down, 'til we fall apart
then you build it back
until i crack
it's just too hard
uh oh, here we go, you make
one more promise that you break
expectations lost
is that the cost?
have we gone too far?
'cause where we are's not
where we were heading
i know the way we go's got
questions we're dreading
yes i do
"but do you too?"'s caught under our fighting
oh well, we gave our best shot
guess therе's no place for us
uh oh, here we go, it's clear
that an end is drawing near
if you're pulling back
i'm gonna crack
why's it so hard?
uh oh, here we go, i miss
days when ignorance was bliss
aspirations lost
was that the cost?
we've just gone too far
'cause where we are's not
where we were heading
oh i hope the way we go's still
not a lost cause
because
i'm falling out of love again
i'm falling out of love again
i'm falling out of love, but then
you make me fall in love again
oh no, here we go
fall in love again
it's not to be, we can't agree
fall out of love again
so make your plea, don't see how we
could fall in love again
it's not easy to let it be
and fall in love again
but if i see you smile at me
i'll fall in love again...
wuh oh!
my lover's got humor
she's the giggle at a funeral
knows everybody's disapproval
i should've worshipped her sooner
if the heavens ever did speak
she's the last true mouthpiece
every sunday's getting more bleak
a fresh poison each week
my church offers no absolutes
she tells me "worship in the bedroom"
the only heaven i'll be sent to
is when i'm alone with you
if i'm a pagan of the good times
my lover's the sunlight
to keep the goddess on my side
she demands a sacrifice
we've a lot of starving faithful
that looks tasty
that looks plenty
this is hungry work
take me to church
i'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
i'll tell you my sins so you can sharpen your knife
offer me my deathless death
good god, let me give you my life
no masters or kings when the ritual begins
there is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin
in the madness and soil of that sad earthly scene
only then i am human
only then i am clean
take me to church
i'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
i'll tell you my sins so you can sharpen your knife
offer me my deathless death
good god, let me give you my life
something about you is soft like an angel
and something inside you is violence and danger
i knew from the moment we met, you are a dangerous thing
when you are with me, i feel like i'm living
and living besides you can be unforgiving
i knew from the very first step, you are a dangerous thing
something about you is warm and seducive, and
when you're with me you're cold and abusive
i knew from the second we met, you are a dangerous flame
you are a dangerous flame
i don't think i know myself, without your help
oh, i wonder why have i got a heaven deep inside of me
i keep the light on, it keeps me warm
there's no end to the fall
you keep on getting better
i keep forgetting
there's no love in the end
i hope you will come
i keep on losing feathers
i keep forgetting
there's no love in the end
i don't know what you want
let's have a bit of fun 'til our downfall
my love, if you feel like i do right now
don't say you're on the run to the other side, my love
you say you wanna try but you never do
sugar, there's a reason why we lose
you say you wanna cry but you never do
sugar, there's a reason why we lose
hello, i've waited here for you
everlong
tonight, i throw myself into
and out of the red
out of her head, she sang
come down, and waste away with me
down with me
slow, how you wanted it to be
i'm over my head
out of her head, she sang
breathe out so i can breathe you in
hold you in
and i wonder
when i sing along with you...
if everything could ever feel this real forever
if anything could ever be this good again
the only thing i'll ever ask of you
you've got to promise not to stop when i say when
everybody wants a home
though i'm not quite sure if poor isaac would agree
"my god," he said, "what did i do
to make you wanna watch me bleed?"
and i feel sick tonight, i feel just like
the dancing flame on a funeral light
and i'm not sure if i want you to save me
and i'd be less uptight if I knew the sight
of blood was just a weakness
and not the whole reason that you made me
but sometimes i think it is...
oh and god just go and leave me all alone
i'm not your son, i'm not your son
everybody dies alone
and i'm so pissed tonight, i feel just like
the last remainin' canaanite
and i don't think that i will be returning
and if you wanna see the irony
and the savage price of piety
there’s a lot of us who are going to be burning
how does it feel?
and the comfort of their touch
it cuts right through this emptiness
and it’s everything i want and everything i fear
that child was my friend
i spent a long time with his curse
i can feel him trembling beneath his plea
i don’t know if there is water
all i know is there’s this thirst
and it might be for the best
though i’m not quite sure if isaac would agree
when the sky turns grey
and everything is screaming
i will reach inside
just to find my heart is beating
when the hour is nigh
and hopelessness is sinking in
when your eyes are red
and emptiness is all you know
with the darkness fed
oh, you tell me to hold on
oh, you tell me to hold on
but innocence is gone
and what was right is wrong
'cause i'm bleeding out
so if the last thing that i do
is bring you down
i'll bleed out for you
so i bare my skin and i count my sins
and i close my eyes and i take it in
and I’m bleeding out
i’m bleeding out for you, for you
i’m bleeding out for you, for you
i’m bleeding out for you, for you
i’m bleeding out for you, for you
i’m bleeding out for you
tell me, where's your heart?
you know that i'm trying my best
i have no feeling in my chest
show me, where's your hands?
mold me into your best
i have no feeling in my chest
show me, use your hands
mold me into my best
tell me what you want to be
what you want to feel
would you want to bleed? (no)
we are something else
save me from myself
this is not what i wanted to be (no!)
we are something else
save me from myself
i don't want to bleed
i don't like you
but i love you
seems that i'm always
thinking of you
you treat me badly
i love you madly
i don't want you
but i need you
don't want to kiss you
but i need to
you do me wrong now
my love is strong now
i love you and all i want you to do
is just hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me
tighter
tighter
i want to leave you
don't want to stay here
don't want to spend another day here
i want to split now
i can't quit now
you've really got a hold on me
(you've really got a hold on me)
you've really got a hold on me
you've really got a hold on me, baby
i love you and all i want you to do
is just hold me, please (hold me)
squeeze, hold me
(hold me, hold me)
call it a lesson when i feel you slide away
and I'm missin’ out on half my life
i ask no questions as your colours take their hold
as my darkness turns to gold inside
i learned my lesson when i felt you slip away
and I'm missing out on half my life
oh, you make me complete
you make me complete
you make me a complete mess
oh, you make me complete
you make me complete
you make me a complete mess
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seeing myself standing
on the edge about to fall
don't know if you like to see me out there in need
while i'm struggling to breathe on my own
every time you look into my eyes, i know i'm yours
all you want is to see me down and beggin' on the floor
don't stop movin' 'cause i like
the way you use me is just right
never backin' down, never knowing when to stop
don't know if i'm really gonna make it, but i try
i don't know if you really feel like i do
losing my objective, slowly out of sight
just tell me how to make it right for you
i won't turn my back on you
'cause your love's the only one I know
just one more chance is all I need
i'll lift you up and set you free
もういっそ“一緒ランド”作りましょ (by now i’d rather we build our own “togetherland”)
君とマッチアップ 乗っかって (we’ll click together, so climb aboard)
「構ってもっと 足りないの」 ("pay more attention to me, it’s not enough!”)
歌え 想い出染みた嫉妬のStyle (sing out the style of memory-tinged envy)
代わる代わる傷付けては (every time we hurt each other by turns)
「もうしない」って嘘で仲直りごっこだ (we play at reconciliation by lying “i won’t do it again”)
勘違いの騙し合い (we cheat each other with misunderstandings)
目を見ればすぐに分かるってバカみたい (they look like such fools when they say “you’ll get it once you’ve experienced it”)
“妄想”に好きって言うほど (our love is so rotten)
この愛は腐ってるんだよ (that i say i’m happy to be deluded)
早く気付いてくれよ (hurry up and realize that!)
アンドロイドガール (android girl)
をかしくなっちゃった (i’m out of my mind)
僕だけのものになった君は“誰”なの？ (i know you’re mine and mine alone, but “who” are you anyway?)
ずっとずっと信じてきたのにな (even though i’d had faith in us the whole time, the whole time...)
アンドロイドガール (android girl)
想いはなんだっけ (what is it you’re feeling again?)
君とのキスが痛くて息を閉じたの (all my kisses with you hurt so much when they closed up my throat)
ずっとずっと (it’ll always, always be this way...)
あぁ可愛いね (“oh, you’re so cute)
どうしてくれよう」 (what’s to be done about you?”)
もう疲れた (i’m tired by now of the way)
ドキドキさせるお世辞のResize (you resizing compliments makes my heart flutter)
鬱雑い鬱雑いの併合罪 (we commit the crime of saying, “shut up, shut up” at the same time)
どう期待していいのか分からなくなったよ (i didn’t know whether it was okay to have whatever hopes i wanted)
エンドロールはまだですか (have the end credits still not rolled across the screen?)
どこにいても一緒だなんてまじで痛い (“we’ll always be together wherever we go” seriously makes me wince)
“感傷”に浸っていいかな (is it okay to give myself over to “sentiment”?)
あの頃を願っていいかな (is it okay to wish i could turn back the clock?)
アリかナシか教えてよ (tell me whether those times back then exist or not!)
我儘が離れない (my selfishness won’t let you go—)
君だけは許さない (you’re the only one i won’t forgive)
アンドロイドガール (android girl)
をかしくなっちゃった (i’m out of my mind)
君だけのものになった”僕“が好きなの？ (i know i’m yours and yours alone, but do you even like “me”?)
ずっとずっと騙してきたんだね (you’ve just been deceiving me the whole time, the whole time, haven’t you?)
アンドロイドガール (android girl)
想いはなんだっけ (what is it you’re feeling again?)
錆び憑いた腕で何度僕を求めた？ (how many times did you seek me out with your rusted arms like you were possessed?)
ずっとずっと (it’ll always, always be this way...)
何度愛を再起動したって (even though i rebooted our love again and again)
ちょっとだって変われなどしない (it just can’t change, not even a little)
何度愛を再起動したって (even though i rebooted our love again and again)
ちょっとだって変われなどしないよ (it just can’t change, not even a little!)
looking out across the waves
i cannot help but feel unknown
this world that we love is due to changing
i feel it deep inside my bones
so far, so long
it is so far gone
when we should fight
they say there's nothing wrong
i feel so certain that we’re out of time
we're out of time
tryna find a way we can work it out
even on the days when i'm feeling doubt
look me in the face you can see it now
i’m tired of these dreams, come the morning light
i don't wanna see the future
so i'm sending help
every story has an end
from light to dark do we descend
but i in every way intend to be
the calm before the storm
the calm before the storm
[a duet. parts in quotes are judah. paired on judah's playlist]
i walked across an empty land
i knew the pathway like the back of my hand
i felt the earth beneath my feet
sat by the river, and it made me complete
i came across a fallen tree
i felt the branches of it looking at me
is this the place we used to love?
is this the place that i've been dreaming of?
oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
i'm getting old and i need something to rely on
"so tell me when you're gonna let me in"
i'm getting tired and i need somewhere to begin
"and if you have a minute, why don't we go
talk about it somewhere only we know?"
this could be the end of everything
"so why don't we go
somewhere only we know?"
somewhere only we know...
[paired with "dawn" on judah's playlist]
i had a dream
i got everything i wanted
not what you'd think
and if i'm bein' honest
it might've been a nightmare
to anyone who might care
i saw them standing right there
kinda thought they might care
it could've been a nightmare
but it felt like they were right there
and it feels like yesterday was a year ago
but i don't wanna let anybody know
'cause everybody wants something from me now
and i don't wanna let 'em down
i had a dream
i got everything i wanted
but when i wake up, i see
you with me
and you say
"as long as i'm here, no one can hurt you
don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to
if i could change the way that you see yourself
you wouldn't wonder why you hear
'they don't deserve you'"
the looking glass, so shiny and new
how quickly the glamour fades
i start spinning, slipping out of time
was that the wrong pill to take?
(raise it up)
you made a deal
and now it seems you have to offer up
but will it ever be enough?
here i am, a rabbit-hearted girl
frozen in the headlights
it seems i've made the final sacrifice
we raise it up, this offering
we raise it up
i look around, but i can't find you
(raise it up)
if only i could see your face
(raise it up)
i start rushing towards the skyline
(raise it up)
i wish that i could just be brave
i must become a lion-hearted girl
ready for a fight
before i make the final sacrifice
we raise it up, this offering
we raise it up
and in the spring i shed my skin
and it blows away with the changing wind
the waters turn from blue to red
as towards the sky i offer it
this is a gift, it comes with a price
who is the lamb and who is the knife?
midas is king and he holds me so tight
and turns me to gold in the sunlight
this is a gift, it comes with a price
who is the lamb and who is the knife?
midas is king and he holds me so tight
and turns me to gold in the sunlight
now i can feel the darkness
it's my own fault, but you had this planned
all of me, you take now, like criminals and shakedowns
yeah, you make me forget who i am
your heart's a vine that i've bled trying to climb
yeah, you're making a ruin of me
try to survive, keep my spirit alive
but like a knife in the woods
yeah, you hunt down the good in me
like a knife in the woods
yeah, you hunt down the good in me
奪った？それなんのことかしら ("stolen? just whatever do you mean?")
知らんぷって 今日を重ねるの (feigning ignorance today as well)
誓った 他の誰でもない (having made a vow, to you and you alone)
きみの前で 愛のない愛 表明 (declaring this loveless love of mine in front of you)
奪った？それなんのことかしら ("stolen? just whatever do you mean?")
決まり文句 演じ切るまさに (committing myself to this performance, set lines and all)
寝抱って飼い込んだ想遺出は (those memories we've desperately created and clung to,)
絡み合って 情を増してくの (they blend together and feelings between us intensify)
なんだかんだ言うが ちょいと黙ってや (blabbering on about stuff, could you shut up for a bit?)
もうどれもこれも嘘に視えて仕舞ったんだ (because everything is starting to look like a lie)
どこにきみの逃げる場所が残ってる？ (is there anywhere left for you to run?)
そう僕も悪できみも悪さ 理解ってんだ (yes, I've realized that we're both guilty here)
染まっちゃってライアー (just let it soak in, liar)
薄まっちゃったこの愛は (this love that's grown so weak,)
きみが全部飲み干してよ (go ahead and drain the cup till there's nothing left)
どこに行ったって (for no matter where we go,)
もう異常だよ (there's no fixing this)
誰も彼もきみのことを嘲笑ってる (everyone and their brother is laughing at you)
もう僕もきみが嘘に視えて仕舞ったんだ (even I've become unable to see you as anything but a lie)
だけどなぜかきみのことを想ってる (but somehow I still have these feelings for you)
そう僕も悪できみも悪さ 理解ってんだ (yes, I've realized that we're both guilty here)
踊っちゃったライアー (dance away, liar)
謝ったってもう遅いの (it's too late to apologize)
すでに恋の共犯者さ (we're already partners in this crime called "love")
戻れなくたって (who cares if there's no going back?)
なにを言ったって (whatever you try and say,)
もう異常だよ (it's already twisted beyond recognition)
少し怖いけど (it's a bit scary,)
月がキレイだね (but the moon looks so beautiful, doesn't it?)
またね (see you again)
さようなら (farewell)
should i stay? should i go? should i run far away
to the point where i can't even see the universe?
i know i’m killing time
and baby that’s not fine
i’ll pack it in, pack it in, never smoke anything
never eat anything that will compromise my health
and, baby that means you, too
that means you
it’s impossible to pin-point, you were like a fat joint
i cannot remember you back in december
never gonna dissipate all of this black hate
stuck in the middle, in the middle of it of all
give it up, give it up, give it up for lent
take a break, pack it in, take it out to the bin
isn’t it counterfeit? take a hit a little bit
wasn’t it not worth it?
i don’t wanna, i don’t wanna be like this back then
yes, maybe, now it’s crazy
we’re no good for one another, no, no, no
i don’t wanna, i don’t wanna act like this
you know i wanna be free
i want to be free
i want to be free
why do we always gotta run away?
when we wind up in the same place
it's like we're looking for the same thing
same thing, yeah
do we really gotta do this now?
right here with all your friends around
in the morning, we can work it out
work it out
you know we need it like the air we breathe
air we breathe, yeah
i love you so much that i hate you
right now, it's so hard to blame you
'cause you're so damn beautiful
so damn beautiful
is it easier to stay? is it easier to go?
i don't wanna know, oh
but i know that i'm never, ever gonna change
and you know that you're always gonna stay the same
is it easier to stay? is it easier to go?
i don't wanna know, oh
but i know that i'm never, ever gonna change
and you know you don't want it any other way
he used to meet me on the eastside
in the city where the sun don't set
and every day, you know where we'd ride
through the backstreets in a blue corvette
and baby, you know i just wanna leave tonight
we can go anywhere we want
drive down to the coast, jump in the sea
just take my hand and come with me, singing
we can do anything if we put our minds to it
take your old life, then you put a line through it
my love is yours if you're willing to take it
give me your heart 'cause i ain't gonna break it
so come away, starting today
to start a new life together in a different place
we know that love is how all these ideas came to be
so baby, run away with me
run away now, run away now
run away now
run away now, run away now
run away now
[paired on eve's playlist]
it doesn't hurt me
do you wanna feel how it feels?
do you wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
do you wanna hear about the deal that i'm makin'?
you
it's you and me
you don't wanna hurt me
but see how deep the bullet lies
unaware, i'm tearin' you asunder
oh, there is thunder in our hearts
is there so much hate for the ones we love?
oh, tell me, we both matter, don't we?
you
it's you and me
it's you and me, won't be unhappy
and if i only could
i'd make a deal with god
and i'd get him to swap our places
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[once more, with anger.]
a falling star fell from your heart
and landed in my eyes
i screamed aloud as it tore through them
and now it's left me blind
and in the dark
i can hear your heartbeat
i tried to find the sound
but then it stopped
and i was in the darkness
so darkness i became
the stars
the moon
they have all been blown out
you left me in the dark
no dawn
no day
i'm always in this twilight
in the shadow of your heart
the world is a vampire
sent to drain
secret destroyers
hold you up to the flames
and what do i get
for my pain?
betrayed desires
and a piece of the game
now i'm naked
nothing but an animal
but can you fake it
for just one more show?
and what do you want?
i wanna change
but what do you got
when you feel the same?
even though i know
i suppose i'll show
all my cool and cold
like ol' job
despite all my rage, i'm still just a rat in a cage
despite all my rage, i'm still just a rat in a cage
then someone will say, "what is lost can never be saved"
despite all my rage, i'm still just a rat in a cage
tell me i'm the only one
tell me there's no other one
jesus was an only son, yeah
tell me i'm the chosen one
jesus was an only son, for you
and i still believe that i cannot be saved
and i still believe that i cannot be saved
and i still believe that i cannot be saved
and i still believe that i cannot be saved!
from a tender age, i was cursed with rage
came swingin' like a fist inside a battin' cage
i went swimmin' with the devil at the bottom of a lake
and he left me there by my lonesome
he was tall and mean with venom eyes so green
wanted reconciliation, but my tongue was in my teeth
i couldn't find the floor, so i was kickin' with my feet
but they weren't there, they were stolen
there is a lighthouse
in the middle of the deep
and i'm still stranded on the shoreline there
and nobody hears me scream
and a little piece of him is in a little piece of me
[a duet with elle]
The path you showed me how to walk was cold
i don't speak, nobody's listenin'
it's not safe to seek the attention
i won't sink, i won't wallow
in this dream that i have borrowed
so don't lead, i won't follow
there's no sense in waiting for tomorrow
i'd find an answer if i wanted to
i'd be a dancer of a different tune
i won't get entranced, i will be changing soon
i'd find an answer if i wanted to
i'd be a dancer of a different tune
i won't get entranced, i will be changing soon
i stay empty, feel the hunger
so simple when i was younger
i awaken with the thunder
a bold statement to end my slumber
and this feeling has got a window
'til i'm numb, 'til i am blissful
'til the sum outweighs the mental
'til the blur of both is my limbo
and i'm hollow
hollow
hollow
hollow
and i'm hollow
hollow
hollow
hollow
and i'm hollow
hollow
hollow
hollow
hollow
hollow
i don't believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now
and all the roads we have to walk are winding
and all the lights that lead us there are blinding
there are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how
because maybe
you're gonna be the one that saves me
and after all
you're my wonderwall
i don't believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now
and all the roads that lead you there were winding
and all the lights that light the way are blinding
there are many things that i would like to say to you, but i don't know how
i said maybe (i said maybe)
you're gonna be the one that saves me (that saves me)
you're gonna be the one that saves me (that saves me)
you're gonna be the one that saves me (that saves me)
you stand asking if i’m sleeping more
i shake my head, your eyes meet with the floor
i was heavy into everything, no common sense
you'll never find what you are looking for
i don't use the same pills anymore
i don't feel that false peace anymore
i only ask myself, what am i feeling for?
why every headache is a holy war
what am i now?
will i ever realize?
how you look through me
with the glow that's in your eyes
you feel like rain
the way you pool inside my brain
oh, but i love the gloom
you’re too cool to feel the same
i never wanted to be
too much for anybody
a ghost made out of your sheets, still believing
every single thing that you say i was and
every single minute that made me so young
i only wanted to be
the light that covers the street
when you fall asleep, still believing
every single part of the way that i love
every single minute that made me so young
(find yourself)
(in the thick of it all)
(losing grip)
(when does the pressure stop?)
(remember me?)
(i was the life you loved)
(with eyes that glow)
(headlights, so bright)
[paired on eve's playlist]
compromises every day
passion passing, fade away
it gets harder to ignore
want it all and nothing more
obstructing exits, calling names
placing blame and saving face
i’m not screaming, i’m just loud
complications every day
it gets harder to stay
and in the end i wish you well
but i still hope you’ll go to hell
i thought i loved you
isn’t that worth something?
well...
cause it’s too late
i did some things i'm not sure i can quite explain
cause it’s too late
i said too much and now there’s nothing left to say
[paired with "good things fall apart" on eve's playlist]
i hope the fences we mended
fall down beneath their own weight
and i hope we hang on past the last exit
i hope it's already too late
and i hope the junkyard a few blocks from here
someday burns down
and i hope the rising black smoke carries me far away
and i never come back to this town again
in my life
i hope i lie
and tell everyone you were a good wife
and i hope you die
i hope we both die
i hope i cut myself shaving tomorrow
i hope it bleeds all day long
our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises
we're pretty sure they're all wrong
i hope it stays dark forever
i hope the worst isn't over
and i hope you blink before i do
and i hope i never get sober
and i hope when you think of me years down the line
you can't find one good thing to say
and i'd hope that if i found the strength to walk out
you'd stay the hell out of my way
i am drowning
there is no sign of land
you are coming down with me
hand in unlovable hand
and i hope you die
i hope we both die
when the lights go out
will you take me with you
something i can't know 'til now
'til you picked me off the ground
with brick in hand, your lip-gloss smile
your scraped-up knees
terrified of what i'd be
as a kid, from what i've seen
every single day when people try
and put the pieces back together
just to smash them down
turn my headphones up real loud
i think i need them now
could you stop the noise
don't walk away, don't walk away
don't walk away, don't walk away!
'cause if you stay
i would even wait all night
or until my heart explodes
how long until we
find our way in the dark and out of harm?
you can run away with me
or you can write it on your arm
you can run away with me
anytime you want
what have we done with innocence?
it disappeared with time, it never made much sense
adolescent resident
wasting another night on planning my revenge
all this time to make amends
what do you do when all your enemies are friends?
now and then, i'll try to bend
under pressure, wind up snapping in the end
don't want to be your monkey wrench
one more indecent accident
i'd rather leave than suffer this
i'll never be your monkey wrench
one last thing before i quit
i never wanted any more than
i could fit into my head
i still remember every single word you said
and all the shit that somehow came along with it
still there's one thing that comforts me
since i was always caged and now i'm free
don't want to be your monkey wrench (fall in, fall out)
don't want to be your monkey wrench (fall in, fall out)
[first block is act 2, the rest is act 3]
this is weird, don't you think?
how i used to have a wife
now i've only got a roommate?
weird, don't you think?
how we used to hang so tightly
now we just can't come together on anything?
how i never thought i'd run from you
this is weird, don't you think?
how you used to have a husband
now there's just a fucking ghost in the halls
and he's trapped inside the house, yeah
he's tethered to the memories of love between these walls
and i think he's gonna linger
at least until the summer or the fall
and i think that he'll probably never really be free again
yeah, i'll probably never really be free again
now there's an angel or a demon in my room
and i confess that i can't tell the difference
she looks a lot like you
sounds a little bit like you too
if you can keep it together, keep it together, you're fine
if you can keep it together, just keep it together, you're fine
if you can keep it together, keep it together, you're fine
if you can keep it together, just keep it together, you're fine
[paired with "maybe not" on eve's playlist]
stay away from me
changed my locks
throw away your key
i'm okay, thanks anyway
don't need another dose of your misery
strung to your vines
now i'm free like the ocean tide
everyday that you're gone
you're getting closer to where you belong
no use in coming over
this road is going nowhere
the lights are flashing danger
you've turned into a stranger
not looking for a re-up
you know i don't believe ya'
when you tell me that you're sorry for your crimes
if you listen closely
your heart is dripping gold
everything about you
is something that you stole
now you're feeling lonely
well, i told you so
if you wanna love me
i don't wanna know
i don't wanna know
i try to be everything that i can
but sometimes, i come out as bein' nothin’
i'm thankin' god that he made you part of the plan
i guess i ain't go through all that hell for nothin'
i'm always fuckin' up and wreckin’ shit
it seems like i perfected it
tell me ain’t nobody better than me
i think that there's better than me
hope you see the better in me
always end up betterin’ me
then you hold me close
then i tell you how you make me whole
sometimes, i feel you like bein' alone
then you tell me that i shoulda stayed in the room
guess i got it all wrong all along, my fault
my mistakes probably wipe all the rights i've done
[paired on judah's playlist]
and i'd give up forever to touch you
'cause i know that you feel me somehow
you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be
and i don't wanna go home right now
and all i can taste is this moment
and all i can breathe is your life
and sooner or later, it's over
i just don't wanna miss you tonight
and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything feels like the movies
yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive
and i don't want the world to see me
'cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am
i just want you to know who i am
i just want you to know who i am
i just want you to know who i am
let those fools be loud
let alarms ring out
'cause you cut through all the noise
let the days be dark
let me hate my work
'cause you cut through all the noise
bring me some hope
by wandering into my mind
something to hold onto
morning, noon, day, or night
you are the light that is blinding me
you're the anchor that i've tied to my brain
'cause when it feels like i'm lost at sea
you're the song i sing again and again
all the time, all the time
i think of you all the time
all the time, all the time
i think of you all the time
there's things that i have done
you never should ever know
and without you is how i disappear
and live my life alone, forever now
and without you is how i disappear
and live my life alone, forever now
can you hear me cry out to you?
words i thought i'd choke on, figure out
i'm really not so with you anymore
i'm just a ghost, so i can't hurt you anymore
so i can't hurt you anymore
now
you wanna see how far down
i can sink?
let me go, fuck!
so you can
well, now, so you can
i'm so far away from you
well, now, so you can
and without you is how i disappear
and without you is how i disappear
and without you is how i disappear
and without you, forever, forever now